the confinement 

we place ourselves into a social confinement

with all the social restrictions, values, ideologies and hopes,
I have never felt this many dreams
dangling on solid ropes.
Nor have I reached the promised enlightenment,
while wishing for someone to defend
in turn, to be true,
I have caught myself on the receiving end
the hell with it,
I will end
I will end the beginning and end

/S.Asilgarayev/
  

I am dead to her

as a whiplash her words

stroke my heart.
“your mind is disgusting”, she yelled.
the anger in her voice filled up the room.
the thoughts in my head,
contracted, grew smaller…
her words suffocated me
“you are such a piece of …”, she said, but never finished.
“I know I am”, I said.
in silence, my disgusting mind,
loved her so much.
I drowned and  prematurely died on the spot
The End.

/S.Asilgarayev/

plastic

  

when has it become a norm to be surrounded by millions, but still experience emptiness;
when chatter surrounds, smells encapsulate, bodies touch but mind disconnects;
my name dissappear, footprints evens out and the voice is long forgott​












































plastic

 when has it become a norm to be surrounded by millions, but still experience emptiness;
when chatter surrounds, smells encapsulate, bodies touch but mind disconnects;
my name dissappear,
footprints evens out and the voice is long forgotten in this apparatus of disturbed rhythms and thoughts, in these machines of never ending wires… buttons and plastic transmitting the superficial intelligence in superficial minds. my heart has become plastic, senseless and my love for self has long dead

S.A

a dust

I am amazed;

I am amazed by the insignificance of time in the

face of the timeless space.

A space between a floating dust and a dense ocean

I feel like that dust, and you are the ocean;

and the space between us is timeless.

the gravity pulls me down to you, but the wind keeps pushing and pushing and pushing

until eventually, I drown in the misconceived pool of cold water.

I drown and become as insignificant as the time in the timeless space.

/S.Asilgarayev/